There's a battle going on today between the high-spirited side and the quieter side of your personality. This is perfectly normal, and it will end in healthy self-realization. Be sure to give yourself time to work out these combative feelings, and don't expect to come to a certain conclusion anytime soon. This is something to mull over, not something to decide. Try to be comfortable with the state of flux you're in. It's stimulating some ideas.